My top 10s for the first part of May

1. I got to see my sweet little ones heartbeating at 138 bmp.
2. I had a wonderful Mother's Day.
3. My garden is growing so well. We'll have lettuce, tomatoes, cabbage, brocolli, and squash in no time.
4. We sold our camper. This is bittersweet to me but the fact that we needed to sell it and did it within the first week of listing it is a blessing.
5. We've officially started doing the "must" of upgrades to our home before the baby comes. This includes changing keagan's room and replacing our floor in the guest/kids bathroom.
6. It has rained, and rained, and rained! And I love the look of my nice green grass!
7. My morning sickness has subsided drastically.
8. Aaron and I still have jobs.
9. I can see my little belly starting to get the oh so perfect pooch from a baby.
10. Hearing my son say to me, "I love you Mommy."

Life

I know I haven't written anything in a while. I come home and I'm just so tired lately that I feel like anything I have to write wouldn't be worth the time. I was sitting here just now wondering what I could write about and thought I'd go visit a friend of mine's blog just to see what she was up to. I learned that I didn't even know she was pregnant but to make matters even more of a shocker, she was due around the same time I'm due and she lost the baby. I know this happens. I can name at least three very close people to me who have lost a little one in the first trimester....and it is heartbreaking! I know pregnancy is a long journey of around 40weeks....but from the moment you know the news your life immediatly starts to take its new course. Aaron, Keagan, and I have already gotten so use to the thought of us being a family of four and we are so excited! We've already started buying diapers for our Wee Schrock and painting Keagan's new "big boy" room so we can make way for the new one. I just couldn't imagine if all of this came to a screetching hault. It brings me to tears with just the thought...and my heart goes out to all you mother's who have ever had to experience such a heartbreak.

Navigating the Road of Motherhood

Myths of Motherhood along the road we travel.
BUMP or CURVE: "Good moms look good all the time"
STOP SIGN: "Good moms keep everybody happy."
NO SHOULDER: "Good moms instinctively know what their children need."
YIELD: "Good moms have an answer for every question."
WRONG WAY: "Good moms take responsibility for how their children turn out."
REST AREA: "Good moms don't admit their feelings of guilt or anger or fear."
DO NOT ENTER: "Good moms keep a hot meal on the table, a clean house, and unlimited time for family and friends.
ONE WAY: "Good moms always have the right words to say, know the right thing to do, and have the right prayer to pray."
NO U-TURN: "Good moms never pull over, never turn back, and never accept defeat."

We're not perfect. We're not always strong, we don't always know the right things to say or do. But we are Mother's. That is a hard job and I know through all my mistakes I'm still doing the best I can do. I feel privileged to be a mom. When I left church today I felt like today wasn't "My day!" It wasn't a day that should be spent in just thanking me for everything that I do. It was a day for me to thank God for giving me the awesome chance in my life to become a mother. It's the best thing in life I could have asked for! For that I am blessed!
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL YOU AWESOME MOMS OUT THERE!

My oh my how my taste have changed....

Well we're about two months into this pregnancy and about the only change I see or feel so far are my taste buds.

Things I just can't eat/drink anymore:
Coffee...I can't believe this. I used to live on my coffee in the mornings! I can't even stand to make it now.
I all of a sudden I despise the smell of beer. Aaron won't even come close to getting a kiss if he's had a beer.
Pot Roast
Hamburgers on the grill. Hopefully this will change soon!
Cottage Cheese....
Meatballs


Few things that I can't get enough of:
Chocolate Milk
Fresh Pineapple
Fruity Pebbles
Subs with lots of vinegar
Salt and vinegar potato chips
anything with lots of salt!

Tonight's menu item is a loaded baked potato. Yum!

I wish I didn't inherited the stress gene. The worry gene....
This summer it felt like we were on top of the world. We had all of our credit cards paid off, we were renovating the bathroom, we both had new cars, we got a new fence, we were just happy and in control. Now I feel like everytime I turn around we have a new expense, I'm watching our savings dwindle and I can see in the future a slew more of new bills. I just found out today after paying the ENT Dr. $120 for 15 mins of his time that Keagan needs his tubes removed. That surgery is going to cost us around $500. We just bought that camper and yes I love it but now we're trying to stash every extra penny we have on it so its paid off before this baby gets here. I don't think that's going to happen!
I learn that my deductible with this baby is $3K! Keep in mind I paid $20 for the entire 9 months of being pregnant with Keagan. $3,000 is a whole new ballgame. With all these new expenses adding up and then the thought of having to pay two daycares and yet another health insurance in just a few short 9 months....Totally has me stressed to the max.

Whats it going to be.....

With 2009 being the year of the Ox and the babys due date teetering between SAGITTARIAN and CAPRICORN we could go either way....

SAGITTARIAN OX
These Oxen have Sagittarian vision. They are born with luck and are prone to take unnecessary risks. They are quick to read a situation and use their talents to accumulate great wealth and status.

CAPRICORN OX
Capricornian Oxen are made of true resolute. A sustained effort allows them to achieve a very comfortable way of life. They are conservative and responsible and will work long hours to provide their loved ones with security and comfort.

The sagittarian ox would be cool. I'm a sagittarian and Aaron is an Ox so this little one could be a mix between the two of us.
I guess we'll have to see.

Bailout on Fear

Church was good today! We hadn't been in a few weeks and of course our first week back I feel like Pastor Hub is speaking straight to me. He was speaking of how out of all the creatures for Jesus to name us he names us sheep. We are his heard and he is our Shepherd. Sheep are prone to be insecure, shy, fearful. They have to feel loved and protected. It was all pretty interesting. He said just like a flock of sheep if one person hears some bad news all of society will take off running and 75% of us don't even know what we're running from. We get so caught up in our fear. He used for an example maybe the doctor finding a lump. Rather than thinking that it could be something small and curable we go straight home and start planning our funeral for tomorrow. I was doing just that this morning. I am so excited about this baby but yet I am so worried. I worry about money and I was upset telling Aaron that I fear that we just aren't going to have any money anymore to do any upgrades or repairs to our house and we're going to end up living in an old run down shack. Why am I thinking this?? Where is it coming from?? Fear. The unknown. Of course we're not going to end up living in an old run down shack. It's going to be hard with another child but we've managed before with Keagan and we'll manage again. Pastor Hub reminded us that life is full of valleys. If it weren't for shadowed valleys then one would never grow. Jesus, our Shepherd, isn't just leading us to these valleys and then dumping us off. He's leading us to these valleys and then helping us through them to get to the reward on the other side.
I really enjoyed todays message. I'm glad we went and we almost didn't. It's so easy to find an excuse but this message was for me today. I'm sure for several others sitting in that church too.