Growing Old

So I had a moment at Denny's today...A moment that hit me like a ton of bricks and then wouldn't go away. Aaron, Keagan, and I decided to head to Denny's for their famous $2.99 Grand Slam breakfast. Can't go wrong with that price! We were just about done with breakfast and Aaron was off taking Keagan to the bathroom when I noticed this little old woman. She was sitting at a table by herself but all the servers seemed to know her. She must be a regular. I was daydreaming a little and actually amusing myself on how I really don't mind growing old. I started wondering what I am going to be like. Am I going to be a sweet little old lady that all the servers come talk to....With that thought I started thinking of my family. My grandparents...Nana, one of my grandmas. She is certainly not a sweet welcoming old lady on the outside but she sure is full of love in her own way on the inside. I was wondering if I was going to turn out like her. And then I started thinking of my mom and how she never got the chance to grow old. How she never got the chance to be that little old lady. What would she have been like? It was like a whirlwind of overwhelming thoughts and then I realized that I was crying. I was actually sitting at the table in Denny's with tears running down my face. I look up and here come Aaron and Keagan. Aaron looks at me totally puzzled because only 5 mins. ago I was sitting at the table laughing and now I'm crying. I wiped my tears away and acted as if nothing ever happened. I changed the subject as soon as they got to the table. But something did happen....And its sad. I just hope I get that chance to grow old. I don't dread it! I welcome it. I can't wait to be a grandparent. To have Keagan come over with his wife and kids.... I can't wait.